another quote...

"Don't worry about the world coming to an end today. It's already tomorrow in Australia.” Charles Schultz

made me stop and think when i read it! i love it.
i believe that all things happen for a reason. that no matter how horrible or wonderful they may be...you can always learn something. grow from that particular moment. well, at least i try. i don't over analyze everything and everyone. okay. so sometimes i just may. i also have a tendency to worry about things that are out of my control. i wish i didn't...but it seems i am turning more into my mother by the minute! :)
nick is so not a worrier. he is also an optimist. or in his words a realist. i am a complete pessimist. i think that if you expect the worse that you will more than likely be pleasantly surprised. whereas, if i am setting such high expectations i feel i will more than likely be let down. funny logic for someone who works oncology. who sees death and dying on a daily basis. who tries to instill hope in her patients. who doesn't want to be miss negativity. who tries to make the chemo experience as pleasant as possible.
a hypocrite. maybe that is who i am. someone who tells her patient not to give up. that there is hope. but at the same time expects the worst when it comes to her own life. maybe it is a good thing. that i can seperate myself from work. that i don't let my feelings interfere with another person's healing or feelings. maybe it is a bad thing. i don't know.
and i'm not sure how the original quote has brought me here. but it really got me thinking about today. the here and now and living in the moment.

now i also don't want this to come across as a shannon is a horribly depressed person post. i'm not. i promise. i guess to sum it all up...i just hate being let down. ;)