12 weeks.

today. ;o)
thought i should share my mia-ness with the blogworld.
nick and i found out we were expecting july 24. i wasn't expecting it so soon after stopping the pill. was a bit in denial when i was late, just chalked it up to the irregularity i had prior to the pill. nope, when i was unable to keep my eyes open after getting home from work, i thought something could be up!
decided it was time for a pregnancy test. wasn't sure how i was gonna tell nick. i didn't want to over excite him if i wasn't pregnant.
so he was washing dishes and i was standing behind him and kinda sorta mentioned that i might need to take a pregnancy test. i saw his reflection and the giant grin that spread across his face. told him to stop it. wasn't allowed until we had the results!
picked up the test and waited til i had to pee... didn't take long! nick took the dog out and i christened the stick. was thinking i had three minutes to collect myself but no. before i could even get the soap on my hands, the darn thing read pregnant! i freaked out. nick of course, was uber excited.
told my boss the next day. otherwise, the plan was for this to be top secret. called my ob/gyn whom i haven't been to pleased with but thought i was only going yearly so i would suck it up. well, not so much.
they weren't going to see me for weeks. i didn't necessarily want to see the doc. just to pee in a cup and get confirmation that the stick was correct. was in a bit of a quandry. so i decided to choose a new ob/gyn. was uber leery of one because of his affiliation with a local clinic. nick kindly reminded me that one of my doctors used to work at said clinic and i loved him. it has nothing to do with the politics of a clinic but the doctor. and three of his staff members highly recommended him. so i called on a friday. they told me i could pee in the cup on monday!! monday came and i was freaked. the office was super friendly. made me way more at ease. we all know the results... positive. time for a freak out again!
scheduled my appointment to see him the following thursday. came home with nick and jason followed us into the driveway. nick was dying to tell him. however, chris wasn't with him and i was in freak out mode. so no sharing. much to nick's disappointment.
friday morning my office threw a happy new greandparent's party for two of our doctor's. their daughter was pregnant with their first grandchild. i could not concentrate. woke up with some spotting. freaked me out. again, the word freaked. going to be my recurring theme for this pregnancy. i mean i was still not able to wrap my mind around this pregnancy thing but no way was i wanting to not be pregnant.
was sent home from work and sent to the doctor's office. the orders: bedrest. oy. ultrasound the following monday. i mean, i'm lazy, but bedrest is not my cup of tea. nor is being home thinking about what the spotting could possibly mean. especially, not me. the consumate worrier. nick was great. super supportive. had to tell his coworker. who was also super great. she called me immediately. used to be a labor and delivery nurse. had quite a few pregnancies of her own, not without complications. glad she called. made me feel better while we were talking. the the freak out resumed when we hung up!
the weekend would not be a lazy one for us. our nephew turned one. no way we could miss that party. and the fam has been hounding us for ages about a baby. so it was inevitable that the questions would be everywhere. i point blank lied. didn't want to take the attention away from the birthday boy nor did i want to share if i would just have to explain whatever happened especially if it was not good.
made it through the weekend. onto the first ultrasound. transvag, not fun. it was a long car ride and i couldn't make it home!! but i'm getting ahead of myself. the tech wouldn't tell us anything. surprise, surprise. she did let nick come in and see the little bean.
great pictures, eh? ;o)
after the ultrasound i decided to share with my coworkers. they deserved to know why i was ditching them. they were great. and i had to stop there because my bladder wouldn't have allowed me to make it home.
went out with nick's dad and his girflriend tuesday. shared the news. michelle, was hilarious. called dibs on shower games. you have to know her to understand!
found out thursday that i have a subchorionic hemorrhage. fun stuffs. since i had been spot free for 48 hours, i was free to go back to work. yay!
told nick's mom about the pregnancy friday. went with her to see dark night. she squealed. have it on flip. explained all the not so fun stuff. how it was top secret but thought we should share with immediately family.
saturday we shared with jay and chris. jay said he knew. nick was being 'funny' about getting together. had told chris ahead of time that he thought i was pregnant.
sunday we celebrated my mom's 60th. signed the card... nick, shan, and grandbaby to be. she was SHOCKED. it was great. then preceeded to share the deets. my grandma was here too, so she found out and was sworn to secrecy. my dad was his reserved self. my brother was the same way...
monday was work. wah and yay at the same time! i was living on ginger ale and saltines. and being super duper blechy.
work went well. i was exhausted by the time i got home. would sleep for a few hours, the nick would wake me up to eat, and then i would go back to bed. he would watch the olympics while i slept and once they were over, would wake me again and make me go to bed. where i slept until morning. was insane how tired i was. and the nausea would come and go. wasn't sure if it was related to those prenatal vitamins or what. heard rumors that i need to take a b6 supplement. you think i would have ran out and picked those suckers up. nope, i procrastinated. which is what i do!
i believe the next few weeks were uneventful. shared the news with a few more individuals. who were sworn to secrecy. had a repeat ultrasound schedule for the 21st. (my lil bro's birthday) really hoping nothing would be wrong. how could i share on that day? thankfully, we didn't get too much info. left work early. my coworkers got a kick out of watching me drink 8 million bottles of water for the prep. not fun. grateful that this one was scheduled just minutes from my house. the tech was wonderful. let nick come in after the hard part and shared with him live images. he was sooo cute. still feeling like a bad mom since he's more excited than i am....
amazing how much the little bean changed in two weeks, isn't it?!
went to dinner with the family, shared with my aunt and my bro's friend. my dad was excited because he was the one to share with my aunt. then proceeded to ask when he could touch my belly. ha. dude, maybe where there's a bulge there that's baby, not fat. ;oD
convinced nick i needed to head to victoria's secret. the girls are just not containable. the lady measured me and i made her do it again. no way the girls were what she said. yup. the girls are out of control. 34c to 34dd. what?! this pace cannot keep up the next few months. no way.
still exhausted and sleeping constantly. nick comments about he thought pregnant people were supposed to be bitchy and moody. um, hello. maybe if i was awake and able to have conversations with you, i would be a moody bitch!
had some spotting the friday/saturday before labor day. didn't call the doctor like the bad nurse i am. told nick. we agreed on bedrest and let's wait and see. the spotting is strange. not real spotting. just a tinge with wiping. if it's tmi, i apologize. i suck at journaling. my girlfriend gave me a book. i haven't kept up. this thing called fatigue is kicking my ass. so i'm hoping i can track a lot on here...
told my coworkers. felt i had to since i was the boss this week. if something happened they needed to have advance warning. nothing since saturday. which was good. spent the weekend in michigan with nick's dad, her girlfriend, her daughter, and her friend. was a nervous nelly. didn't share with them. don't think i could handle the constant asking or curious glances. so i lounged while nick and guinness were active. had a great time. played lots of games. fun stuff.
came home and slept. woke up to nick watching sponge bob? what?! he has had it on every night since then. sigh.
had my follow up at the ob on thursday. met his nurse practictioner. love her. was super reassuring about the spotting. said the hemorrhage is like a bruise. might have that for some time since my body will try to get rid of it/absorb it. made me promise not to worry. yelled at me for not sharing with everyone! heard the heartbeat. nick again was super excited. me = freaked again!! was told everything on the ultrasound looked good. the hemorrhage was shrinking. baby was good sized. heartbeat 170. no more abnormal visits. get to see them in one month. next ultrasound would be when normal people have their first... at twenty weeks.
felt super sick at work on friday. just tired and nauseated. not fun. really ready to come home and sleep. which i did. oh and i have switched to taking my vitamins at night and added a b6. made me feel tons better.
ran some errands yesterday. decided that nick to be as freaked out as i am. so i took him to babies r us! ha. it was hilarious. his comment was something along the lines of, 'i didn't realize there was all this stuff.' yeah, welcome to freakout land dude. so we picked up some books. the baby gizmo buying guide is currently our favorite.
spent yesterday with nick's mom side of the family. shared the news with them. well, his mom did. it was funny. she didn't mean to. walked in on a conversation about how her grandson calls her gigi and that our kid would have to call her that too, so she assumed they knew. it was cute.
hung out and played games. had a nice dinner. good times.
now we're enjoying football!!! woohoo. so excited for regular season. hoping those bears can do better this season. fingers crossed for kyle orton. go purdue. didn't realize when nick signed up for a volleyball league that it was sunday nights. well, he told me but it didn't click that we would miss football. that's how braindead i've been. looking forward to the colts/bears game tonight. can't wait to see the new stadium. nick's aunt and uncle are going to be at the game. so jealous. hope they have a great time.
k. i think that's plenty for longest post every. if you made it this far... thanks. you should win a prize. maybe one of these days i'll actually finish posting vacation stuff.
oh and if you have any tips/hints/suggestions for bringing up baby, bring em on! ;o)
oh and if you are curious as to if we're going to find out what the bean is... nope. it's gonna be a surprise. so unisex room ideas are welcome too.


Anonymous said...

Congrats!!!! So excited for you and Nick :)

My preggers friend from work and her husband decided not to find out either, been way fun (she's due around Thanksgiving).

Hope you're feeling rested soon.


Lisa said...

Congrats on the big news!! Hope you get to the part where you start enjoying being pg soon!

Anonymous said...

so happy to read your wonderful news Shan. Huge Congrats to you both! Take a leaf from Nick's book lol. stop freaking, start buying and enjoy the next nine months! Very Best Wishes Hera

Liz said...

super long post, but I was excited to read the whole thing! Sorry you've been so tired, and have had to go through some scary stuff, but I'm glad you've made it to 12 weeks!!! Congratulations!!!

Anonymous said...

HUGE Congratulations to you both - I thought I'd been living under a stone when I read Julie's post on the mb ; ). So glad I'm not too out of it - sorry that it's been a scary start, hope the tiredness wears off and you can start enjoying being pg ! Love and hugs Alison

Monica said...

Yay! Congrats!

Kache said...

Ok, I'm glad that second ultrasound was on there, because I needed a road map for the 1st one. :)

Hope things continue to get more stable and enjoyable! I think it'll be fun not knowing the sex beforehand.

Congrats again!

psucolleen said...

you're the cutest freaked out person I know. I'm SO thrilled for you & Nick. I'm so glad you're not finding out ahead of time; my prediction is it's a girl. Thanks for bringing us along for the ride; you're going to make fantastic parents and I'm so happy to see it all unfold. God Bless..

KJ said...

Yay!!! Congrats you two!!!!

Brandy said...


i spotted too, no worries. and whoa mama on the boobs, your man is in for fun times!

we did primary colors, gender neutral and was fun. and i am obsessed with sock monkeys and they can go either way depending which ways you go with it